Baby A + quitting your day job

5.04.2014

i believe in unicorns.
I believe I've mentioned this before--but I have serious issues with anyone having control over my time other than me--that is why I put in my two weeks at my day job last month. In theory, I had a rather cushy job--I usually only had to go into the office once a week and the rest of the time I could work from home, but that ended up being less ideal than it might sound--I'd get emails I had to attend to at 7 at night or I'd have a work-free day planned, but something would come through the email chain that would foil my plans. And the amount of time I was spending on the computer was truly driving me mad--so since I wasn't happy, I decided to make a change. 

It took me a while to work up the courage--every Sunday Marcus would ask me, "So, are you gonna do it?" and every Sunday I would say, "I think so, I'm not sure." and then every Monday I would come home and tell him I didn't do it--there was another project I knew they needed me for, so as soon as this one was done--I'd do it...But of course those projects just kept coming and I just kept feeling stuck.

Finally I was out in the garden talking with my mom about how I wanted to do something creative, with my hands and my eyes, something that mattered. When I was talking about it, I got so passionate, something I didn't know was inside me broke free and I felt like I was on the verge of tears. I knew the following Monday, I had to do it. And I did. 

It was hard, but it felt so good to drive home that day knowing I could tell Marcus it had finally been done, and I felt relieved. 

I'm not sure I have figured out exactly what it is that I want to do with my life, but since my last day, I've been doing a lot more photography and it feels good. It's always scary for me, because I admire such amazing photographers that I know I can't measure up to, but I also know I have to practice and gain experience to ever come close to the kind of artist I would love to be. I also know that most people can't afford the photographers that I admire, so I am available at a more affordable rate as I learn.

About two weeks ago I got a call from my brother. My sister-in-law was in labor and wanted me to come down and photograph the arrival of my new niece. It was such a peaceful and miraculous experience. It was my second time photographing a delivery and it reminded me of how awesome women are and how miracles are real and happening everyday. Those two shoots are some of the most special and favorite shoots I've ever had the pleasure of shooting.

Twelve days later, I got to take probably the most beautiful pictures I've ever taken of that new little baby A. I love her so much and surrounded by some of my favorite flowers?! What could be better? 

I hope you don't mind if I occasionally share my favorites on the blog...enjoy!
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7 comments

Jessica said...

These are beautiful! Good luck with your new venture...it's always scary making such a big leap of faith, but I think our hearts always know what is right for us.

Emily S (Em Busy Living) said...

Adorable! You'll do great!

Lecinda Ward Photography said...

How exciting!!! I launched my own photography business a few months ago, and it's terrifying and nerve-wracking, but oh-so-exciting. These photos are beautiful, and so are the ones on your facebook page! Looking forward to following your adventures!!

Stories of Kel said...

soo cute! great job!

Irene said...

I liked your FB fan page! I think you're brave. I'm still wondering what to do and I know I want to do something different than teaching. My boyfriend has convinced me to finally changed once we move to France this summer, to find a job in an area that will actually appeal to me! I'm excited and scared at the same time, but oh so proud if I do it! I'm happy for you, I'm also trying to learn how to take my little cardmaking business to the next level with a showroom next month and trying to learn everyday. I love the work you did with your niece, keep working because you're talented!

Emily Baker said...

i'm leaving my job at sperry topsider's corporate headquarters this summer and going to music school! i know what you're feeling, girl!

smallthingsgood said...

I recently quit my job too, it's a big/scary/awesome change! Congrats lady!

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