moon / i believe in unicorns.

in honor of my previous post today i have gathered a few applicable songs, so next time there's an eclipse, you can be ready with these:
total eclipse of the heart
just like the moon
fly me to the moon
space oddity
heavenly by harry connick jr. (unfortunately, the only one on youtube is a picture of someone flipping you off the entire time, so i didn't link, but if you haven't heard it, spotify it or something, it's a favorite)
and how could i forget?
moonriver, thank you katie
my moon, my man, gracias laura!

i would love to add to the list, if you can think of some i have forgotten, go ahead and let me know!

the day i realized i was a fool.

sunday was one of the greatest days of my life.

sunday there was a solar eclipse and no, it did not involve disgusting vampires or silly a capella groups.

it did, however, involve a few of my very favorite things that are neither silly nor disgusting:

1. the moon 2. the sun 3. my local community college planetarium 4. amazing 'solar viewers' (that i didn't know were one of my favorite things until i used them for the first time on sunday) and 5. telescopes

you guys, it's like no one really understood the crazy awesomeness that we were witnessing!

i was running, and jumping, and squealing, and almost bursting out into tears when I looked in the telescope and saw the moons passing in front of the sun--like a lovers rendezvous.

for goodness sakes, LOOK!:

why weren't more people freaking out?

why when i speed across town, with a 'solar viewer' in hand, to try and let my sister and brother-in-law catch the last few seconds of the passing, did they say, "Cool" in sort of the most unconvincing tone anyone could muster?

and probably the most important question of all,

WHY am i not an astronaut?

or at the very least an astronomer?

because i'm a fool.

clearly.

Eclipse of a Dream.

4.22.2012

  It was a cool spring night, billows of blue blanket engulfed my warm body and stars filled my eyes. Covering my walls were carefully painted constellations; they made me feel like I was outside sleeping on the trampoline, like I was breathing in only open-air and fresh cut grass. I was excited about life and innocent of pain. As I wiggled in my bed the shift of weight in the blankets exposed cool pockets, as if the folds had provided shade for their own hiding parts. I shivered with glee.

   Childhood was slipping from my grasp as I faded off to sleep. My mind conjured up a favorite memory--I was in kindergarten, we were let out of class early for a special trip out to a mysterious dome in the field. As we entered, it was dark and unsettling for some, but for me it was pure joy, like stepping into outer space. The lights began to glitter and dance. It was then that I decided this terrestrial life was no place for me; I needed the chance to dance on his dust and play on his starry playground--I was going to the moon.

   The years passed, but the dream stayed safe and unchallenged in the back of my imagination. I was twelve and on the verge of adolescence. Reasoning skills were in the brew and I made a disturbing departure from dreamland, back to my bed.

“How was I going to get to the moon?”

Before my mind could even reason, my heart quickened. I jumped out of my bed, ran up the stairs, swung open the door, brushed over the porch, through the backyard, past the regal old ash tree, and scanned the brilliant skies.
There He was.
Bright and smug with that calming glow He’s always had. He hung there unaffected by my concern.

How did I let this happen?
Why had I held on to this dream for so long?
Why hadn’t I let it go before it had welded itself so severely to my heart?

Tears welled up in my eyes and a pit formed deep in my stomach, like a wormhole through an apple. I tried to escape back to the ignorance I had lived in only a few hours earlier, but it was no use, forlorn and fallen I melted back to my unassuming bed. I stared at the ceiling for a long time, as if mourning the death of a dear friend.

This was the worst feeling I had ever experienced. And it didn’t go away. The next day I felt bitter and betrayed.

Why hadn’t somebody told me I couldn’t actually go to the moon?

This was worse than Santa Claus, and this was definitely worse than the lousy old tooth fairy and somebody had thought to tell me about those disappointments long ago.
I had heard that Misery loved company, so I told everyone I saw that they too, like me, were never going to go to the moon. Nobody was quite as troubled about this as I was, and so without satisfaction I kept my feelings in.

Months past, then a year, I painted over my glowing constellations in an effort to purge my dreams, but one night an old star shown through and I was reminded of that emptiness. I again began to ruminate and tense. Then in my daze of despair I was swirled back in time to the parking lot carnivals, specifically that ride with my best friend that could make me feel like we were really flying. I jumped to the scene of my first kiss, me shaking with innocent excitement, the linger of Burt's Bees Wax on my lips. And then to the time my brother broke my heart with his selfish decisions. I tasted the salt of those tears, but up and over through time and space to Coronado Island where I fell in love, real love, the kind you can really trust.

I woke up renewed and strengthened by some new power. Hope and Happyness came quickly to the mend.
I realized that although the moon would have to wait, there were plenty of things here on Earth to explore and discover, Pains that make us stronger, Joys that make us better, there are Mistakes we have to learn from and Mercies that bring us to our knees. All waiting for us here on Earth.

There have been events in my life that could have jaded my outlook on it’s beauty, but when those times come I jump out of my bed, run up the stairs, swing open the door, brush over the porch, through the backyard, past the regal old ash tree, and scan the brilliant skies.
There He is.
Bright and smug with that calming glow He’s always had. He’s taught me that things don’t always go the way we might have planned, and that might just mean that we need to change our plans.

{My} Messy Hairbow

12.21.2010

Are you ready to top that Christmas outfit off with a bow? Here's you chance:

Here and here are the two bows referenced in the video.

Isn't Miss Kalli just the cutest thing with the most

beautiful hair?

She's so cute, you'd think she was mean or something--

but au contraire!

She's the sweetest little doe I've ever met.

We spent the day making ginger-creme cookies and catching up. Love her!

Any Quick Remedies for This Cold I Caught Last Night?

My nose is clogged and stinging, my throat hurts, and according to Marcus, I'm a "Snore Baby"...I bet I caught it because I was running around barefooted last night watching the Lunar Eclipse. So Worth it!

{Tunes} on Tuesday Featuring: Brett Dennen

11.23.2010

Credit & Copyright: Stefan Seip (Astro Meeting)

Once upon a time, a long time ago, before they discovered things like the iPhone and dinosuars and stuff, I got a letter in the mail. I opened it curiously.
Inside was a small, folded up piece of paper.

All it said was

"just like the moon"

I had a pretty good idea what I was supposed to do.

My internet was down, so I got in the car and went to the

Mesa Public Library.

After a few google searches, I found this.

Then I cried.

That was a hard year, but I still like this song.

I am a Moonchild.